hectic but not that challenging

Hectic week for me, busy with so many things to submit, and due dates to catch, ‘bikin wa sakit pala saja’, but it is not that challenging, seriously I said, finally ‘setel gak apa2 pun’, so I reckons it is not that challenging laa

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I thought the due date for Emach project was on the Friday, but it was not, it was on the day before that…On Thusday which is the day of the project’s submission, unfortunately I met with a girl at lab (the girl is also in the same class as I am, butI never realize the existence of her, is it because of she rarely going to class or the opposite around eh?), and she was submitting the report, “I don’t know that we’re in the same class, but anyway you’re really amazing, submitting the report a day before the due date? more than punctual I guess” saying to her in a condition of not knowing the real due date yet.."today is the due date right, what so amazing about submitting the report a few hours before the dateline?” she answer confidently, and yes, make me totally believe in her, damn..

It is 1 o’clock in the evening, still got 4 hours to complete the project, by the way we had kickstarted doing the project for the past few days, no need to worry, ‘momentum tu dh ada, kira ok whut’, but still no progress on the main part of the project which is the programming code, ‘cuak beb,mn mau cilok coding neh, cari kt tenet tadak lak yg sebijik’, felt like we’re going to just copy another group’s coding, but since the ethical spirit in our group that can be considered as at the very high level, preventing us from doing such unethical act (thanks to our Corporate Ethics lecturer, Puan Khalidah, pheewitt)

To make it short and brief, finally we’ve managed to complete the project, how do we do it in just a few hours? No need to be explained here, ‘biarlah rahsia, mana la tau kalau2 Ramarao terbaca blog aku, kantoi lak nnt’ let the secret circled among our members only.. that is what we called creative, manipulating the resources available to create a masterpiece, ‘wa caya la sama lu, we're not copying yek, seriously nih..’

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Hectic it is, but it depends on how we handle and cope with the situation, then it come to our mindset, whether we described it as challenging or not, that make us feel satisfied about it, and for this Emach project ‘sikit pun aku xpuas hati, projek satu sem buat dlm satu hari jek’, what the heck but who cares eh? hahaha

P/s: cuba menulis se'skema' yg mungkin dlm post ini tp tiada kepuasan dlm diri apabila aku membacanya

membebel tiada kesudahan

Last night was my final test in my whole “pejam celik pejam celik” life in utp, final test yah not final exam, klu dh abis final exam, buat pa la aku duk cangak lg kt utp ni, blk kg lg baguih..ala, sama ja kot test ng exam, semua itu adalah ujian drpd Allah SWT..hoho, btol ckp kamu itu, tp still ada different maa, test bule tiru kaw2, exam xle nk tiru, curi2 tengok mmbe sebelah bule la, klu nk tiru siap amik paper mmbe sebelah mmg xpat, gila hg nk tiru tym exam, depa pasang cctv kot, sbb pa lak depa pasang? sbb depa nk usha awek2 yg pakai seksi la tym exam, xdak keja nk usha budak2 dok tiru ka dak, bek depa kasi horny diri depa, so girls my advice to you, wear properly during exam, during exam je ok, tym2 lain gasak hmp la nk pakai camna pun, mmg xdak cctv yg memandang, tp still ada si Dia di atas sana yg memandang..

Bila tym2 test camni, perbualan yg slalu aku dengar “wei, aku nk dok sebelah hg satgi, nk tiru hg, ckp byk xmo”, skali lg aku nk emphasize kt sini, ayat ni refer tuk test je okai, klu tym exam tempat duduk mmg depa dh fix,xle ubah2..back to the story, bila kena buah ayat camtu, aku jd kaget dan konfius, akunya interpretasi tuk ayat camni ada tiga..

Firstly, aku rs depa ni saja ja mau breaking the ice, nk create a topic to talk laa, ala, xkan la tym2 crucial camni nk sembang pasai uncle2 construction depan bilik aku yg amat rajen bekerja tetiap hari, tp bg aku, why not kan? nothing wrong aite, off topic.. depa ni ada intention nk sembang ng hg, tp xmo la sembang pasai benda2 akademik serious humongous gitu, "xkan r nk muntah rumus2 kt hg lak,bek aku telan dulu la ni, bila test satgi baru muntah xle blah", nice..so ayat yg aku ckp td pun kluaq dari mulut depa, aku pun layan saja..

secondly, he/she really meant to sit next to you, pergh, aku rs cam pandai gila tetiba, ada org nk tiru aku, sure depa igt aku power fak but the reality is I’m not, semua tu relate ng level of confidence hg ja, klu hg xpower pun tp buat2 konfiden, mmg laa org igt hg power hell, tambah2 la klu tym buat exam tu hg xtoleh kanan kiri langsung, “siyes power mamat nih, xtgk langsung mmbe kt sebelah, sure markah penoh nih, bek aku tiru dia”, apa2 pun, jgn over confident sudey, klu xtau buat cara xtau, jgn jd bodo sombong, malu bertanya sesat jln beb

thirdly, yg paling aku menyampah, what he/she really meant to you is the opposite of what he/she had been saying, the real meaning is actually “dude, tym test satg, klu ko nk full mark, meh ah duk sebelah aku, aku ni kan terer, semua benda hujung jari jek wa ckp lu” org melayu cakap bahasa kiasan, aku ckp bahasa kasar xberadap, aku tau la hg power xyah la ckp camtu kt aku yg kurang pandai ini, bukan bodoh yah tp kurang pandai..one question, how do you know what he/she really meant was? from the gesture and eye contact I should say, yeah it is complicated but you just feel it, don’t know how, sixth sense perhaps..

Sama2 lah kita muhasabah diri, ckp jgn sebarang ckp beb, klu membebel kt diri sendiri jek xpe, klu involve org lain yg sama2 hirup udara segar ini, pk baik2 dulu, terlajak perahu bule undur, terlajak kata badan binasa, I’m done here..

P/s: thanks kamu for the kata2 semangat, nnt aku belanja cekodok

obstacle number two

Last night, a friend of mine borrowed my lappy laptops, “dude, my laptop rosak lah, bule pinjam jap, esok pg2 sebelum ko bgn tido aku kasi blk?” spontaneously I agreed, why is it hard for me to just say no?? anyway I’m not desperately needed to use her for the time being though but I guess I was wrong..and definitely yes, I was wrong

Woke up this morning just to see that my lappy was not there yet, damn, at instance all kind of this and that works come into my mind, “mau bikin kelija pagi2 pun tala senang”, just take a nap la dude, nope2, I had enough of it already, then I drove to the sports complex, filled up the time with calories burning activity called “jogging 2 sambil cuci mata”, later went back, and still…no lappy, dammit, I took a bath, went for a breakfast and had some “kutuk sana kutuk sini” chitchat session, later went back and thank god, finally…ho yeah!! there she is

Turn on the pc, with intention to make some unfinished works, surfing the net while listening to those cachy2 songs make me wanna shake my booty, grap a couple of fluffy pillows, one to put under the head, another hugging in my arm, and then laid my back to rest..damn, why utp’s beds are made to be so heavenly comfortable eh?

obstacle number one

played those ‘sigur ros’ songs on another Sunday morning, seems like you know the meaning but you don’t really understand a single word he’s been singing, grabbed a couple of fluffy pillows, one to put under your head, another hugging in your arms, and then you laid your back to rest...damn , i’m so shleepy

men with 'cave'

Pressure it is. Pressure to be the best, pressure to success. Technically defining the pressure, the pressure is obtained by simply dividing the force exerted with the area of an object. Jargon it is not, we’ve learned this back in the high school, in form three I guess. I’ve been thinking, we’ve been using the same word to explain the pressure in the car tire for example and also to describe the feeling of being pressurize, namely pressure to complete our work on time (the only example that I can think of for the time being). Does it really meant to be the same? Is it possible to relate the technically defined pressure with the pressure felt inside us?

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Minggu ni mmg challenging, story sket apa yg challengingny? Setakat 2 3 test dlm seminggu, due date esaimen on the same day, tidak perlulah kamu berbicara di sini, tp aku punya alasan tuk aku berkata begitu, aku suda bikin ini blog maa, bikin lak dlm minggu yg mungkin bg certain people mmg pressure abis, tidak challengingkah lg kamu? In addition to it, blogging using UTP’s internet yg mmg lahanat, sat ada sat xdak, it feels suck, wireless sula on, proxy pun sula pakai, method apa lg yg diperlukan to make me satisfied..minggu ni gak ada job interview, mcm2 kompeni, mcm2 karenah, tp aku tidak melibatkan diri, awat cek x p? Klu p pun, sure kna reject awai2, for the reason of being another petronas scholar, aku seperti digantung tidak bertali, “korang keja ng petronas dh laa, bg peluang budak non-scholar” to make it clearer here, not all pet scholar will be hired by pet yah..seeing those people going for their interview makes me wonder how my future will looks like, apart from spending my whole life with a kiut miut chick (suke la tuh), I wonder how my career progression will be?

Crita yg best minggu ni gak, a friend of mine suddenly make himself disappear from our view, out of touch, out of contact, ke mana kamu menghilangkan diri? What’s the problems mate? I remember a quote from a John Gray’s book that I read couple of weeks back then, men have their own ‘cave’, going there as a matter of to be left alone, trying to sort things and problems out all by himself. Ego kan laki? That’s the fact and the reality of this so called macho creature called men. When the pressure is too much until we can’t handle it, some space needed alone, to run away from all the problems for a while, and later come back with a fresh start, unik beb laki, tp pompuan pun unik gak, but unique in their own ways, mls aku nk crita panjang bab2 mars and venus nih, kamu ada duit, kamu ada kad library, go read the book, nk aku explain? for this limited space and time, I’m not going to,ok.. back to the story, sebab musabab menghilangkan diri mmg laa aku tatau, sapa aku nk tau lbe2, bukanny awek aku pun, xdak keja nk wat caring2 bule, tp aku just curious, and also feel sorry for him, rs seakan ingin membantu tp bila pk2 balik, xyah ah menyebok, not my rumet, not also my housemate, so what the heck for you to add another burden on your shoulder, tp dia tu saudara sesama Islam kamu, aku terbakar sebentar, ala, lagipun dia dh balik pun, ntah ke mana menghilang berminggu2, travelling around using his bicycle, dem cool eh, cam azroy lak dlm crita 'gila- gila remaja' mengembara nek motor scrambler, the thing is now, it remain mystery and should always be mystery, haha, gaya penceritaan aku cam kes kompleks gila, padahal tadak apa2 pun, sja mau bikin havoc, apa2 pun, as much as I can say to him, be strong bro, nothing much, take your time to sort the things back, klu ko jd camtu sebab ko ada xpuas hati ng sapa2, xyah pk byk2, ko tumbok je btol2 kt tulang rusuk sebelah kiri dia,kasi kena btol kt tmpt yg laki dilahirkan xcukup satu tulang tu, raba2 kt situ pun dh rs ngilu, inikan pula klu ko bubuh penumbuk, sure pedih like hell, aku dh stat merapu, stop la wei, mengarut pa lg, tp itulah aku, proud to be myself and yes I am

P/s: rugi lak rsny xjoin ESQ trening

verstail sungguh kamu

aku amat pancet, khamis ada test, jumaat pun sama, sepatutnya aku rs cuak tym2 camni (test pkul 10 satg kot, ptg pun ada lg), tp aku tidak..ini realiti kehidupan aku aka budak final sem, xtau la org len camna, tp bg aku mmg la obvious, although esaimen tutorial byk tara mana pun, atau test yg bersepah2, atau fyp yg xsiap lg, atau kelas yg ntah berapa byk dh kantoi (ayin rupad mmg legend part ni, ponteng klas CE xhengat donia, no wonder org panggil dia abg bujang final sem) atau apa2 sja yg so academically involved, tensi btol bila listkn benda2 cmni, tuk mematahkan perasaan tensi dari menerobos ke dalam diri, statement membina diperlukan..

"Chill bro, ada berapa hr je lg kot ko nk ada kt utp ne, so rilek2 sude, buat rajin bule, bukanny bule up dh pun cgpa" bunyi cam org yg patah semangat tp intelligent actually, mengapa? inilah yg dikatakan verstail, sbb kemampuan tuk adapt dlm apa jua situasi terbina di dlm diri, ada kebolehan tuk memutar belit ayat kepada positive manner tone, klu dlm game FM tu, value adaptability dia for sure 20 out of 20, 19 laa paling kurang aku bg, org camni maintain postif, xdeny istilah cuak dan emo xle jwb exam, "donia ja semua nih, akhirat tu yg kekal abadi" klu sembang benda2 spiritual lak mmg la tiba2 jd alim ulama, konsep2 cam tawakkal, tawaduk, fatonah dsb hujung jari jek,wa caya la sama lu

merepek no more, what should you expect from a guy like me that have 2 tests on a single day, hr jumaat lak tu, tolak2 masa tuk semayang jumaat, bermunajat, berzikir dan beratib kepadaNya (aku hanyalah insan yg penuh dosa), ada la sedikit masa yg seciput tuk terus menelaah pelajaran, blogging tetap maintain, tp qualiti dan persembahan dikurangkan, asyik2 nk tulih panjang2 je, toke balak pun bungkuih tikaq, adios bebeh

P/s: aku reckon verstail is not the correct word kn..