blogging I am

yes no maybe i don't know can you repeat the question

2009-10-08T05:11:00.000-07:00

life isn't black and white, it's a million gray isn't it?

I was given free grand stand ticket just to see my beloved team eventually being ‘titik-kaw2’

2009-07-11T21:01:00.000-07:00

Johor FC 5 Kedah 1

This may sound awkwardly imaginative, but for the first time (hmm..all the time actually) felt like i should be the manager, make a massive genius tactical change and turn the game into a superb fightback

Or perhaps I should be one of the players on field, scoring a dozen of goals..blerghhh

Devastated, currently listening to 'the strokes-hard to explain'

Nota buat penyokong2 johor: sila cari tempat perlindungan dgn segera yah

money matters

2009-06-13T02:20:00.000-07:00

So we graduated, obtained a good grade, being employed, spending half of our day being the slave to the system, enjoying another half of the day with a mind thinking of tomorrow yet still to come, and for what reasons? Absolutely money indeed

But do we have to chase the money like chasing a bunch of hot celebrities with the hope of taking photos together and later showing off to our colleagues like they care so much about that?

For the fame, yeah I guess. But for our need of surviving this sickened mother earth and able to mingle around buying some food at the price of RM4.20 and later being asked “Abang, 20 sen ade tak?” crystal clear nope, absolutely NOPE

P/s: Bau duit gaji hasil titik peluh sendiri mmg masyuk wallaaweii, hahahaha

shit happens

2009-05-16T07:43:00.000-07:00

sialan buat mereka2 yg membelok dgn tiba2 tanpa memberi sebarang signal,
gara2 perilaku anda, bumperku mendapat ciuman manis percuma..sigh~

Centralised Tankage Facility, Port Tg Langsat

2009-05-02T08:49:00.000-07:00

At work you need to look as if you’re really working damn hard, in fact the harder you look, the better it is.. yeye je,hahahaha

Keje site bikin ak sunburn kulit bertona2 semakin macho saham semakin naik (ini akak siti yg keje dlm ofis ber-aircond pakai seksi tade sape pun tak kesah bknnye akak kne panjat tank mn2 pun yg ckp eh, tade maknenye ak suke2 nk puji diri sendiri nie, better ak puji2 a girl yg sgt cumel tue, huhu, ske la tuh)

dari THI ke TL

2009-04-16T17:58:00.000-07:00

*THI – Titi Haji Idris

**TL – Tanjung Langsat

And so long to devotion
It taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye, wish me well
You've gotta let me go

p/s: mengulaq kt rmh no more, mengulaq kt tmpt keja la pulak,

nonstop working like I’m somekind of a robot cannot la bos..

i should consider myself a football fan when...

2009-04-04T23:15:00.000-07:00

Last night, went to this football match, between two galacticos (not Man Utd neither nor Real Madrid), just ordinary local teams with a bunch of players, mixture of old and young lads, inspired mostly by this so-called european style of play, and trying really damn hard to adapt the strategy into their own.

Lots of people were there, called themselves true fans which literally meaning to be there for the team supporting when they are high-achievers maintaining a straight win in a row, and as if the team in a low and hard condition trying to find the perfect rhythm to at least satisfy with a draw, hopefully the supporters will stand their ground without ever giving up continuously supporting the team, though each and every moves made by the players seem to be inappropriate and wasted, but still have the guts and believe that they can make it and grab a consolation one point.

But the truth, NAHHH, no such people exist, maybe there is, but the question is, how many? A person? A couple of persons? A triple of persons? A quadruple of persons? (just continue to count if you’re not feeling bored of doing so)

We, as Malaysian citizen, football supporters specifically, are really passionate about those playing in european league, criticizing here and there why on earth did the local players are not as good as Rooney, Ronaldo, Tevez (wtf I’m giving examples from this evil team, have I lost my mind) but do we ever think once for god sake, that we’ve been a good supporter similarly to what we’ve seen live on TV, supporting their team wholeheartedly till the last minutes patiently waiting for the miracle to happen as if the game was a fairytale story with a happy ending

Do we have enough credentials to condemn the players of not playing in a world class standard when we also are not behaving as a world class supporter as well???

pemimpin-mu pemimpin-ku jua

2009-04-03T02:38:00.000-07:00

“Ya!! adik2 para pelajar yg sy hormati sekalian, hr ini sy ingin berkongsi tips ng adik2 semua..tips bagaimana untuk mengingat nama2 Perdana Menteri Malaysia kita..Oke2, sila beri perhatian ye adik2 sekalian..”

R – Rahman

A – Abdul Razak

H – Hussein Onn

M – Mahathir

A – Abdullah

N – Najib

“Simple and clever genius kan?”, kata aku dengan hidung yg kembang kempis gembira

“Encik Hanif, bagaimana nk mengingat nama2 perdana menteri yg seterusnya selepas Najib?”, tny salah seorg pelajar yg nmpk begitu teruja untuk mengetahui tips2 yg lebih brilliant

“Hmm..mungkin kita kena guna nama org lain pulak, it depends actually on who is the next PM, let’s say Muhyiddin is the man, so we can use M.A.H.A.T.H.I.R for the first M, or if thats not the case, perhaps we can use A.B.D.U.L.L.A.H and the first A is for Anwar, who knows, nothing is impossible rite”, jwb aku dgn begitu yakin sekali tanpa perlu menggaru kepalaku ataupun kepala sesiapa sahaja di situ

“Encik Hanif, kita tahu yg Tunku Abd Rahman ialah ‘bapa kemerdekaan’, dan kita juga tahu Mahathir ialah ‘bapa permodenan’, dan juga kita tahu gelaran2 lain untuk PM yg lain..so soalannya apa pula gelaran untuk bekas PM kita iaitu Abdullah?”, tny seorang lagi pelajar sambil membaca soalan yg tertulis di atas kertasnya, mungkin kerana begitu nervous agaknya untuk bertanya soalan yg begitu panjang mukadimahnya di khalayak ramai

“Hmm..simple je jawapannya, gelaran untuk Abdullah mestilah ‘bapa mertua mithali’.. hmm..tp ni hanya ckp2 underground je la, jgn lak dlm exam kamu semua tulis camtu oke” jwb aku sambil menggigit bibirku tanda control macho tidak mahu gelak terbahak2 di hadapan pelajar2 yg seakan2 kurang mengerti

P/s: I’m just joking ’warong kopi’ kind of things only, no hard feelings yah, btw congrats to our 6th Prime Minister, may our Malaysia continues to prosper under his reign, amen..

“eh, panas lah…tak ade lah”

2009-03-28T07:49:00.000-07:00

*sila refer iklan syampu CLEAR, maka anda akan dpt menyebut tajuk post ini dgn intonasi yg betul

Kita hangat berbicara psl earth hour dan mereka berkata “sila tutup lampu anda”…

Kita sibuk berdiskusi psl kesan pemanasan global dan mereka berkata “let’s save the mother earth for the sake of our children”…

Kita cair berpeluh kritik sana sini psl cuaca yg panas amat dan mereka pula berkata “cairnya si lelaki itu adalah disebabkan si gadis itu yg dressingnya ‘simple je kot’ tetapi amat sweet di mata si lelaki entah kenapa” (ske la tuh)…

sedikit off topic, maafkan saya

Kita memerah otak mahu memecah keheningan suasana yg panas aku dehidrasi dengan cuba ber’small-talk’ dgn ayat keramat “eh, panas lah” dan mereka (actually bkn mereka tetapi dia si uncle pemandu teksi itu) berkata “ayyoyyo ane, you tau ka sbb apa sekarang byk panas, itu pemilihan UMNO byk kontroversi bikin saya panas hati tara bule tahan la”…

sememangnya off topic ,

tak perlu maafkan saya, tp maafkanlah si uncle pemandu teksi itu yg amat rancak berbicara pasal hal2 politik yg penuh dengan kekotoran sehinggakan si uncle pemandu teksi itu tersasar jauh dari arah sbenar yg ingin ditujui, dek kerana kusyuk berdiskusi dgn si pemuda segak berkemeja lagak seorg korporat yg begitu tekun melayan tanpa mengendahkan meter paparan angka2 pitis yg galak berubah di situ…haih

aku rasa suara kamu not-bad juga yah

2009-03-20T08:03:00.000-07:00

Lately byk rancangan realiti mencari bakat dlm bidang nyanyian, sesuatu yg aku rasakan menarik pabila menonton rancangan2 seperti ini ialah kita bebas menyuarakan pendapat tentang mutu nyanyian seseorg peserta itu..dan mutu kritikan hakim juga yah..

masing2 punya telinga punya mulut, so mcm2 la komen yg didengari takkala rancangan ke udara, ada yg hanya tergamam speechless mendengar bait2 lagu dinyayikan, mungkin terlalu asyik atau terlalu boring, hanya mereka yg tahu..

tak kurang juga yg berlagak arif memberi komen membina seperti seorg komposer yg hidup matinya bermotivasikan muzik. tp peduli apakah aku ng pandangan2 yg aku rasakan amat subjektif terhadap suatu seni yg tiada noktah dlm berkarya…

tp sesuatu yg aku ingin pedulikan dlm post ini adalah saat dan tika upacara penyingkiran peserta. Aku tidak suka dan bolehlah dikatakan meluat-yg-amat, di saat pengacara menyusun ayat2 (why they crapping so long melerek2 lol) yg dibajetnya suspen tuk menimbulkan suasana kerisauan di dalam hati peserta, dan juga penonton2 di rumah yg tiada hubungkait relationship tp seakan mahu memberi sokongan moral kepada idol mereka dan berharap suatu hari nnt pabila idol mereka menjadi famous, mereka mampu berkata “lihat!! Kan aku dah ckp dari dulu, dia ni punya bakat menyanyi”..

dlm situasi yg genting-la-sgt-tu, si pengacara pun mengumumkan nama peserta yg terpaksa meninggalkan competition pada malam itu, si peserta yg disebut nama pun seolah2 terkedu terkejut berada dlm dilema sama ada mau menangis teresak2 tak igt dunia, atau mau berlagak gentlemen dan berkata dlm hati “it’s just a small matter”..dan saat itulah kita akan melihat si peserta tadi dlm keadaan yg cam tak keruan, nmpk cam sedih pun ada, tp mulut lak terukir senyuman lebar seakan menang loteri gamaknya..

si peserta yg terselamat juga tak ketinggalan dari merasai pengalaman split emotional experience or perhaps some other term yg kamu rs comfortable tuk menyebutnya..dlm hati bukan main gembira, tp dek kerana tersemat dlm naluri sifat tidak pentingkan diri sendiri ringan sama dijinjing berat sama dipikul, so perasaan yg hepi pun disembunyikan dan muka sedikit monyok pun ditonjolkan tanda turut simpati..

itulah reality dan norma manusia..maybe kisah peserta2 program nyanyian ni takde la terasa, atau tak terkesan di dalam hati kita sgt pun, tp actually klu kita selami dan cuba memahami perasaan mereka, kita juga selalu berada dlm situasi seakan2 yg mereka lalui. Sbg contoh, just to name a few, tika kita mendapat result yg gempak dlm exam and at the same time mmbe kita dpt result yg cam haram jadah teruk….another example, tika kita dan mmbe sama2 pegi interviu tetapi at last kita ja yg dpt position tu dan mmbe kita pulang hampa muram seribu duka..

Nota kaki:
Ntah hape2 mengarut, sebenarnya aku terpanggil menulih ni sebab tgk pekro best sgt duk cerita psl interviu dia, FYI aku pun ada interviu gak next week, so wave goodbye, wish me well okai..tu la niat asal aku tulih post ni,hehehe

school break kenduri season

2009-03-16T22:15:00.000-07:00

Cuti sekolah = kenduri sana sini,

klu dah dijemput, mesti kna p,

“Habaq la kt mn pun, mesti sampai punya” bkn aku yg ckp, tp ayh aku yg ckp naa..

Yg letih nk cari lokasi kenduri, sapa lg? aku jugak..

Aku klu org bg map satellite google earth aku mmg tada hal la beb,

Tp klu peta subjek Kajian Tempatan ni mmg aku fail terus..

Just masjid, stesyen minyak seketul dua dlm map mmg la nk cari susah,

Jln sempit denai batas sawah semua aku redah

But well worth the hardship,

Nothing more pleasant than to share the joy and happiness with those ‘yg diraikan’

Off topic:

...i swear its true

because a girl like you is impossible to find,

you’re impossible to find

syukur-ku akan nikmat-MU

2009-03-09T06:07:00.000-07:00

Aku konfius..rs bersyukur pun ada gak,

Sbb pe?

Tym jln ng adik aku, org igtkan aku yg adik, adik aku yg abg..

Tym jln ng mmbe aku, org igtkn aku gak yg adik, mmbe aku yg abg (celah mn muka sama aku tala phm)

Tym g interviu, akak receptionist xcaye yg aku nk apply position engineer, dia tny “berapa umur adik?”

So pe maksud?

Jelas lagi nyata, aku nmpk muda jgn jeles..hahaha

Ke org len yg nmpk tua?

aku mmg muda, siyes tak tipu

P/s: tak sempat sambung tulih kisah aku di mesir, byk lg mende len nk pk beb , klu nk tgk gmbr di mesir sile klik ini link

Dahab

2009-01-10T09:43:00.000-08:00

Late that night, leaving Cairo and going to Dahab, another 10 hours journey on bus, passing through the Suez Canal, before moving on a long and endless sand desert road straight to Dahab, getting thru some military checkpoints continuously asking for your passport, since Dahab is situated in Sinai peninsular, a region just next to the Israel border, the immigration procedures were a bit strict and made me felt like an illegal Indonesian immigrant (even though they always confusedly thought me as a Chinese, seriously I’m not lying)

Our arrival in Dahab warmly welcomed by Arabians taxi drivers competing against each others to offer their services, met a Russian traveler calling himself a Londoners which really can’t find the connection, offered to help us in getting a cheap taxi and end up squeezing 7 peoples (including the driver plus the Russian) in a taxi, went straightly to the Seven Heaven Hotel, much more a motel to me, surrounded by brick house huts in an area looks like gulf war refugee’s camp, but nothing much to complaint, the cheapest available motel in Dahab, what else to expect?

Dahab, at a glance, was just a tiny and dull town on the coast of the red sea, the streets were lined with seafood restaurants and souvenirs shops. There wasn’t much to do in Dahab except for sea diving and snorkeling, and as for us, at this period of time in winter, with this Malaysian pampered skin on our body, seeing other tourists with their scuba accessories; goggles, swim suits and what-not, were just enough. It’s not that we’re afraid of the cold water, but we’re just taking a precaution action preventing from unnecessary melting nose afterward

The whole evening we went on a camel trip, walking trough the desert, climbing up the canyon, before enjoying the sunset with a cup of tea, prepared on an open fire, the Bedouin style. Then, had our seafood dinner by the seaside, and it was really nice to be treated like some kind of millionaire in a restaurant similar to a café in a five star hotel by the red sea, even though it was dark and nothing much to see except for the food and some hungry Malaysian in front of you. Later, went back to the hotel and had some rest...Still had a mountain to climb

Dahab dari atas bukit

pak arab tekun memanaskan air teh

At 1 o’clock early in the morning, arrived at St Catherine National Park, going to climb the Mount Moses (Jabal Musa), a place where Moses meet the God. With the guide from a bidouin, we did the 3 hour hike up to the summit. Among the earliest to reach the summit, no one to welcome us except some bidouins selling blankets and mattress. The condition up there was dark and cold, cold until my hands were freezing and begun to numb. What really amazed me is that there were a small mosque, a church and a 5 pounds toilet up there on the summit. How on earth they’re able to build such structures on top of a 2300m mountain? I’m totally amazed. At 5.30 in the morning, no matter how bad a night we had spent up there, the sunrise just about made up for it, a pure natural beauty.

Saat matahari terbit di puncak Jabal Musa

tandas 5 pounds per entry

Hiking the Mount Moses was really exhausting and sleeping for the whole day was a good revenge I guess…

To be continued

KL to Cairo

2009-01-04T08:27:00.000-08:00

Flying with Egypt Air through Mumbai, nothing much to do, nothing much to observe, I’m expecting to see beautiful Egyptian stewardess (jeles la tuh, no offence ok), but lucky I am not, there were only old steward and stewardess deserved to be called uncle and aunty on board, pity me, in the cramped seat I decided to sleep

After a long and sleepy 12 hours flight, finally arrived at Cairo International Airport, still dark and early in the morning, cold and frosty, it was winter in Egypt, the temperature was 12 degrees celcius, I had never thought a country like Egypt will be colder than what we have in Cameron Highlands or UTP’s Chancellor Hall, misinterpretation

At the immigration counter, being asked questions in Arabic which I am speechless to answer, at last the officer said to me in English with a grin on his face, “You’re Muslim and you should be able to speak in Arabic”, yeah I agreed, shame on me, but to be truth the officer was actually speaking to me in ammi Arabic, (bahasa arab pasar), which differ from what being recite in Quran or prayer..So nothing to be shame aite (saja bagi sedap hati, padahal arab baku pun bukannya phm sgt pun, nk ckp lagi laa kantoi)

The sun starting to rise, the location to go was Malaysian Hall in Abbasiyah, decided to take a taxi, witnessed the ‘deal or no deal’ situation with the taxi driver which is very common in Egypt, negotiation for the taxi fare beforehand is a must or else you will end up paying ridiculous amount of money, finally at 50 gernih (kira rm50 duit arab la tu) we proceed to Abassiyah (tambang asal 70 gernih, last2 turun jd 50 gernih, senang2 je arab ni kencing nk ambik kesempatan, cet)

Arrived at the Malaysian Hall or commonly known as ARMA (Asrama Malaysia), ARMA is a place where some of Malaysian students studying in Cairo live, actually outsiders like us are not allowed to stay there but there’ll always a way beb, hahaha, initial plan was to pass the guard by walking ‘slumberly’, pretend to be just like other students walking in and out of the hostel, but damn ‘kantoi’ (sorg2 beg besaq gerabak sapa suruh, for sure tak nmpk cam student yg bwk buku seketul dua je kepit celah ketiak), at first, we’re still saying that we’re students there and just went back from a vacation at somewhere far away, “Show me your student card”, the Arabian guy said to us like a school teacher scolding his students, still not satisfied eh, my brother confidently replied speaking in Arabic which the translation sounded something like this, “the truth is we’re not students here in Cairo but we’re all students from Alexandria and we’re really sorry for lying in the first place, unfortunately we had left our student cards back in Alexandria since we’re coming here just to visit our friends here in ARMA, something like ziarah-ziarah qudwah fiisabilillah kind of thing", huh, this is what I called ‘tipu dalam tipu’, (tipu menipu nih mmg menjadi amalan arab pun)

At last mission accomplished, I’m relieved to be eventually able to lay my back and take a proper nap at this so-called Asrama Malaysia

To be continued...

tengah negotiate ngan pak arab teksi

kelibat wira emas dari dalam teksi

MISR

2008-12-26T12:43:00.000-08:00

winter sejuk cam syiaaalll..

aku ada kt mesir skang nih, nnt blk msia baru aku update blog, nk bg suvenir sorg satu mmg la takpat cek, ekonomi meleset beb..sangap nk suvenir gak? baca blog aku sudey, cincai2 kira suvenir gak la tuh

aku berhenti berharap

2008-12-04T08:39:00.000-08:00

Petronas shuts petrochemical plants
By FINTAN NG and LEE KIAN SEONG

KUALA LUMPUR: Petroliam Nasional Bhd (Petronas) has shut down indefinitely several petrochemical plants in Kertih, Terengganu and Gebeng, Pahang as demand for polymers fell sharply due to a slump in overseas factory orders.

Chairman and chief executive officer Tan Sri Hassan Merican said the materials were used to produce consumer goods and hence would be the first to get hit in a global slump.

“Resins are stocking up at Kertih due to lack of demand. When there’s no market for polymers or resins, there is no point producing,” he said. He did not give a timeframe when production would resume.

read further here

what’s next after university?

2008-11-28T23:36:00.000-08:00

nk cari keja tak semangat, rilek2 dlu, nnt once dh msk alam pekerjaan xle dh nk rilek2, responsibility dh byk, masa pun cepat berlalu, tetiap hr pegi keja pkul 8 blk keja pkul 5, mlm lak abedaa sbb letih, rutin yg sama, tup2 umur dh 40 thn, baru le nk terigt tym muda2 dlu..

based on apa yg aku tahu secara puratanya manusia zaman skang ni mampu hidup sampai 60 thn je, klu ikut umur nabi lak sampai 63 thn je, so klu tempoh hayat manusia ni diibaratkan cam jam kt dinding yg ada 60 minit tu, umur kita yg 20 thn plus+ ni kiranya jarum dia tgh duk tunjuk kt angka 4 la, more than quarter of our life have passed, nk smp separuh dh perjalanan hidup kita kt muka bumi ni, so setakat ni..apa hasil?

btw, aku mampu ckp pe klu org tnya, I’ve completed my university life, blum dpt degree lg tp dh ada transkrip rm10 kira ok whut (buat duit sungguh utp nih), dari umur 6 thn dah kena bergelumang dgn pelbagai knowledge2 dan informasi2 yg perlu di’compressed’ dlm kepala otak yg hanya sebesar 2 bijik penumbuk yg dicamtum together, well done my friend, we’ve survived the Malaysian too-exam-oriented education system, takdenye kena barah2 otak pun, dan takde gak yg mati bunuh diri terjun bangunan ke, kne masuk wad psikiatrik ke dsb, syabas buat diri anda..

*****

sebulan pertama pas abih semua exam, presentation and whatsoever nih, aku takmo sentuh langsung buku2 yg berbentuk akademik ada equation calculation sort of things, letih dah ng benda2 akademik nih, bukan tinggal terus takmo sentuh langsung cam benda tu najis mughallazah, tp tinggal kejap je la, lgpun kan proses pembelajaran tu tak berhenti sampai peringkat universiti ja, but more than that..

aku nk travel jd backpacker, bwk baju dua tiga helai, pukoi kaki p bejalan melihat keindahan dunia, terigt lak crita ‘into the wild’, crita pasai sorg mamat nih pas grad ja terus meghilangkan diri pegi mengembara ke Alaska mencari ketenangan jauh dari hiruk pikuk kota, tp aku takmo la jd cam dia, apa jadah kan, last2 crita dia mati sebab termakan buah beracun, setel suda..

hahaha, aku ni karang ayat mcm aku ni tourist mat2 saleh yg slalu mai malaysia galas beg besaq pakai spek mata hitam pastu tnya direction “where is the national monument?”..aku bukan seperti itu yah, aku just nk p visit adik aku ja, so takda la challenging sampai kena mempraktikkan istilah ‘malu bertanya sesat jln’ once kt sana, kata dah ada tourist guide bertauliah, takda masalahnya, but who knows..tempat penginapan pun takyah pk, tp aku tak kisah pun klu kena tidur tepi jln, yg penting buku pelajaran buang tepi no more quadratic formula for the time being..

*****

and the month after that, job hunting begin..betelo kot klu duk rumah lama2 tak buat keja, pk nk cari keja nih bikin aku serabut, niat hati nk keja ng pet menabur budi pada negara tp apakan daya, takyah berharap sgt, senior aku grad sem lps recommended pun takpat lg, to make things worse dia ee lak tuh, so bule la berkira2 angkat kaki cari kompeni lain, tp situasi complicated btol, nk cabut p tempat len pun bukan senang2 cam hg jentik buah karom, kompeni len takmau budak2 yg bonded nih, takdak keja bg bdk2 ni position, keja baru sebulan dua ttba pet panggil depa blk, dh kurang sorg pekerja, pastu kna cari pengganti blk, susah2..

buat demotivated bule lak mamat ni, tak susah mana pun, yg penting planning kena mantap, manipulate the problem to be your advantage, lagak bercakap cam personal development coach, takleh blah aku..so apa perancangan? aku tny mak aku, mmg la dia suh duk rmh memasak, kemas rumah, bekebun dsb, aku kata kt mak aku, “cek takmo duk rumah ja, duit tak masyuk poket, len la klu ada sistem pembayaran megikut jam di rumah” mak aku pun bg ayat bernas blk kt aku “hang keja ja la kt supermarket”..mmg brilliant, tak perlu cari alasan cmn nk kencing kt employer nk explain yg hg bukan scholar pet, aku tny pakcik aku pun dia suh keja supermarket, to be more specific dia suh keja ng tesco, maybe sbb dia pelanggan tetap tesco kot, so dia rs berbangga klu ada sanak saudara dia yg menyumbangkan tenaga untuk menyediakan perkhidmatan yg terbaik di kalangan pengguna..

tp smp bila nk keja camtu, degree tinggi2 buat pa..itu sbg permulaan, pengalaman keja tu yg lbe penting skang ni, jgn bazirkan masa camtu ja..pengalaman keja tesco ja buat pa, nnt klu hg nk keja engineer bukan depa nk tgk pun..hahaha, ini yg org ckp kna pandai manipulasi keadaan, perancangan aku camni, dengan duit yg tak seberapa hasil titik peluh bekerja sbg kuli tu, aku nk enroll dlm Institut Latihan Industri (ILT), amik course chargemen, buat part time dh la, hujung minggu p klas, so amacam? brilliant..

masa 6 bulan tempoh idah sebelum di’release’ oleh pet tu takde la terbuang begitu saja, lgpun tym hg nk p interview tempat len nnt pun hg dah ada something yg lbe dari org len yg baru grad, pengalaman bekeja di tesco untuk menampung yuran pengajian untuk kursus chargemen, mmg la interviewer tu ckp hg ni eager to learn, hardworking and other positive attributes you name it yourself..

*****

bukan niat aku nk influence hampa suh follow plan aku ka hapa, tp aku just nk share je la planning aku, and most importantly to remind myself to appreciate the time as it deserve to, live no regret beb

pertama kali di'tagged'

2008-11-13T16:55:00.000-08:00

Aku yg di’tagged’

pergi mana2 je, org akan ckp kt aku “you look familiar”, famous public figures look-a-like perhaps
kuat melalut keluar topik ketika bercakap, that’s why aku malas ckp bbyk
suka usap rambut di bawah dagu tym berfikir, not the only one having this habit, med pun sama gak cam aku
suka tgk Martha Stewart Show, aku take note tips2 dia kasi, pastu buat2 pandai dpn mak sendiri
tidur ketika menonton wayang mmg hobi aku
tgk muvi kt pc pun aku suka ‘pause’ tym tgh2 cerita, tido jap, pastu bgn sambung balik
berpeluh tym beli nasi lemak, maybe sbb nasi lemak tu yg panas, atau awek2 situ yg hot, atau mmg aku yg hot no one can’t complain, you judge? wakaka

Org yg men’tagged’ aku

sebut nama ko, org akan relate ng kereta atos
one of the otai taiko in ee, seangkatan ng waty
suara ngko unik, unik bukan bermaksud lunak seperti siti nurhaliza yah
ko ni kuat meronggeng, hidup enjoy abis tp..
scorer dlm exam, nampak cam tak kuat stadi pun tp pandai geliga cam sang kancil
vocab ko power, no wonder aku buleh terikut pakai perkataan ‘hectic’ ko
aishah dan atos, sama2 laju…bukan aku ckp tp org len yg ckp

Org yg aku nk tag

amin
jamel
waty
kn
uena
sakinah
kamu yg sweet itu

reverse psychology attempt

2008-11-07T12:07:00.000-08:00

Bangun di pagi hari bajet mau stadi tak toleh kanan kiri, tp aku silap, aku tak perasan gajet kt depan aku nih lagi la hyper besar penangannya..hoho,aku ON pc aku sbb nk cari motivation je ok, don’t get the wrong idea here..tp sudah tabie manusia,ckp tala selupa bikin maa,mula2 jari telunjuk je yg buat giat klick sana klik sini,pastu jari2 len pun turut memberontak mahukan keadilan, mahukan perubahan,last2 skali terhasil la post ini, aku bingung ng jari2 ku sendiri..

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I’m touch actually, touch with a post from a friend of mine, about her mom being a reverse psychologist, giving advices to her, not by scolding her “kaw2nya”, but just simply by slow talking not-direct-to-the-point something like that, in malay we called it as “marah bukan kebencian tp tanda sayang”, wei!! its wrong laa, in malay we called it as “tegur berkias”, as for me I should always called it as “kalau terasa padan muka, kalau tak terasa peduli hapa aku,hahaha”

Enough of the babbling, I suddenly realize that she is very lucky, and I am as well, why? because we are still breathing this air at the moments where our moms and dads still breathing the same air as we are, not to say that one day in the future, our parents breathe oxygen while we breathe the carbon monoxide, I’m just saying that we’re lucky to live the moments, share the happiness and sadness together with our beloved parent while they’re still alive, to have someone who always remind us on so many things until we can’t imagine how spacious their head are, to actually keep the reminders, not just for themselves but also for others, a big round of applause to them..not enough huh? lets make a thanksgiving party for them, still not enough? “do you really need me to buy a lamborghini car or what to make you satisfied”, the father suddenly said softly “cukuplah sekadar doa agar bahagia dunia dan akhirat”, and the son reply spontaneously “betol2, I know that..i just want to bribe you with those materialistic things, to actually see how materialistic you are, but I know you’re not right?” the father, with a smile on his face, answer “that’s true, you’re so intelligent and “mulut manis” eh, nah amik duit sepuloh ribu ni,buat belanja kawin, belen dia masuk poket”, “belen celah mana? wanita2 skang ni mana dpt nya sepuloh ribu, semua stok graduate universiti, kompem la juai mahai” the son only whispering for his own ears while his hand grabbing the whole money..

Perhaps this post a little bit off topics or any other terms that you would like to called it, but as far as I’m concerned, and hopefully you're also concerned, appreciate your parents, make them happy while you can, although sometime you just feel uncomfortable for doing so, just try to be sincerely as you can, “kat awek buleh wat2 caring, tny dh mkn belom, sihat ke tak, tgh watpe tuh,cantik la baju awak mcm orgnya jugak..kt mak ayah tak buleh plak wat caring sweet talking camtu”, hahaha, this is what I called “kalau terasa padan muka, kalau tak terasa peduli hapa aku,hahaha”, I’m off here..

P/s: still wonder if one day before he die, will he say "how lucky i am for having you as one of my sons"?

fandeyian as per requested

2008-11-06T20:44:00.000-08:00

FANDEYIAN OKULTIKA HYMNOLOGY
Music: As Sahar (June 1995)
Lyrics: One Barchiel (26th. November 1995)

Rootings from coastal depth of Juana
Hoisting the wizardrie name of Siprapat
That of sorcerer’s transcending wisdom & glory

Djinnical disguise
Taken the shape of holy kiyai’s
Proclaming to lead in evil’s pride

Mystical sculptures of reptility
Conjuration – Sanggama’s cult of lust
Conjuration – Cernunok’s cult of wealth

Adorance within the witchified beauty...

Queen of idolizing grace
Iconized in knowledgedom of blackness

Ghaibance magick visionaring extreme-most witchism Jaya Kewijayaan
Honorary in inpenatrable strength

Upon guided path of Iblys
Ritualized in feast of blood

By your name Mona
You’ll remain a monarch in my eyes...

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maybe the lyrics not that radio-friendly kind of things, but who cares? janji sedap..

fandeyian okultika hymnology

2008-11-05T18:24:00.000-08:00

“Queen of idolizing grace,
Iconized in knowledgedom of blackness,
Ghaibance magick visionaring extreme-most witchism Jaya Kewijayaan,
Honorary in inpenatrable strength”

Bait2 lirik lagu karya ‘As Sahar’ yang bertajuk ‘Fandeyian Okultika Hymnology’ ,

menarik kan tajuknya, apa maksudnya?

aku pun siyes tak tahu,

sedang aku boring stadi, ttba tangan aku amat galak untuk memainkan lagu yg aku rs amat challenging ini,

nk kasi mahir,mau berkematu praktis..

selama ni aku just layan jek lagu nih, apa yg dia nyanyi pun aku tatau,

natang apa la yg dijeritkan, celah mn nk phm?

bila tgk lirik dia, siyes aku kusut musut,

tp lagu dia mmg best lahanat, ending solo yg amat sedap,

lagu2 sesat,dengaq buleh,amal jgn

lirik siap ada crita2 pasai Jaya Kewijayaan lg tuh,

adakah dia nk crita pasai ketuanan melayu di nusantara dulu?

only they knows..

sbb pa la yg depa xtulih lirik2 yg senang sket?

crita la pasai kisah cinta kau dan aku, bulan bintang menjadi saksi,

and whatsoever…

aha, tu yg org ckp think out of the box kot,

apa barang crita benda2 simple camtu,

bek nyanyi something yg bule educate listener,

terigt lak tym aku tgk rhythm of champion,

ada satu grup nyanyi lagu pasai ‘batu belah batu bertangkup’,

style gila, muka sorg2 ganas gila,

tp nyanyi lagu pasai hikayat rakyat,

mmg respek sbb kreatif,

tp laguny kurang menarik, kurangnya solo2 mengancam la beb,

nway, mmg salut la sama you all..

P/s: aku still tak suka interpret lirik sesuatu lagu, suara penyanyi tu aku ibaratkan cam satu instrument, sama seperi piano,sama seperti gitar, perkataan yg disusun menjadi lirik itu hanyalah untuk mencapai note2 agar secocok dengan melodi sesebuah lagu..fuyoo ayat

no suprises

2008-11-02T17:09:00.000-08:00

“Such a pretty house, such a pretty garden,
No alarms and no surprises”

simple melody and yet a classical radiohead’s song,

sick of routine, sick of being normal, so predictable and no suprises...what the heck?

really hate to interpret a song’s meaning by the lyric,

love to let the melody itself describe it to me,

hearing the xylophone sound just make me high,

and floating in the sky,

at all of a sudden, leaving behind all of the burdens,

as every single line being sang in background,

so passionate, so exquisite

later landing back to the ground, and I just realize,

that it’s completely done..yeah!! my fyp report is done,

incredible huh?

hectic but not that challenging

2008-10-31T23:52:00.000-07:00

Hectic week for me, busy with so many things to submit, and due dates to catch, ‘bikin wa sakit pala saja’, but it is not that challenging, seriously I said, finally ‘setel gak apa2 pun’, so I reckons it is not that challenging laa

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I thought the due date for Emach project was on the Friday, but it was not, it was on the day before that…On Thusday which is the day of the project’s submission, unfortunately I met with a girl at lab (the girl is also in the same class as I am, butI never realize the existence of her, is it because of she rarely going to class or the opposite around eh?), and she was submitting the report, “I don’t know that we’re in the same class, but anyway you’re really amazing, submitting the report a day before the due date? more than punctual I guess” saying to her in a condition of not knowing the real due date yet.."today is the due date right, what so amazing about submitting the report a few hours before the dateline?” she answer confidently, and yes, make me totally believe in her, damn..

It is 1 o’clock in the evening, still got 4 hours to complete the project, by the way we had kickstarted doing the project for the past few days, no need to worry, ‘momentum tu dh ada, kira ok whut’, but still no progress on the main part of the project which is the programming code, ‘cuak beb,mn mau cilok coding neh, cari kt tenet tadak lak yg sebijik’, felt like we’re going to just copy another group’s coding, but since the ethical spirit in our group that can be considered as at the very high level, preventing us from doing such unethical act (thanks to our Corporate Ethics lecturer, Puan Khalidah, pheewitt)

To make it short and brief, finally we’ve managed to complete the project, how do we do it in just a few hours? No need to be explained here, ‘biarlah rahsia, mana la tau kalau2 Ramarao terbaca blog aku, kantoi lak nnt’ let the secret circled among our members only.. that is what we called creative, manipulating the resources available to create a masterpiece, ‘wa caya la sama lu, we're not copying yek, seriously nih..’

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Hectic it is, but it depends on how we handle and cope with the situation, then it come to our mindset, whether we described it as challenging or not, that make us feel satisfied about it, and for this Emach project ‘sikit pun aku xpuas hati, projek satu sem buat dlm satu hari jek’, what the heck but who cares eh? hahaha

P/s: cuba menulis se'skema' yg mungkin dlm post ini tp tiada kepuasan dlm diri apabila aku membacanya

membebel tiada kesudahan

2008-10-28T19:22:00.000-07:00

Last night was my final test in my whole “pejam celik pejam celik” life in utp, final test yah not final exam, klu dh abis final exam, buat pa la aku duk cangak lg kt utp ni, blk kg lg baguih..ala, sama ja kot test ng exam, semua itu adalah ujian drpd Allah SWT..hoho, btol ckp kamu itu, tp still ada different maa, test bule tiru kaw2, exam xle nk tiru, curi2 tengok mmbe sebelah bule la, klu nk tiru siap amik paper mmbe sebelah mmg xpat, gila hg nk tiru tym exam, depa pasang cctv kot, sbb pa lak depa pasang? sbb depa nk usha awek2 yg pakai seksi la tym exam, xdak keja nk usha budak2 dok tiru ka dak, bek depa kasi horny diri depa, so girls my advice to you, wear properly during exam, during exam je ok, tym2 lain gasak hmp la nk pakai camna pun, mmg xdak cctv yg memandang, tp still ada si Dia di atas sana yg memandang..

Bila tym2 test camni, perbualan yg slalu aku dengar “wei, aku nk dok sebelah hg satgi, nk tiru hg, ckp byk xmo”, skali lg aku nk emphasize kt sini, ayat ni refer tuk test je okai, klu tym exam tempat duduk mmg depa dh fix,xle ubah2..back to the story, bila kena buah ayat camtu, aku jd kaget dan konfius, akunya interpretasi tuk ayat camni ada tiga..

Firstly, aku rs depa ni saja ja mau breaking the ice, nk create a topic to talk laa, ala, xkan la tym2 crucial camni nk sembang pasai uncle2 construction depan bilik aku yg amat rajen bekerja tetiap hari, tp bg aku, why not kan? nothing wrong aite, off topic.. depa ni ada intention nk sembang ng hg, tp xmo la sembang pasai benda2 akademik serious humongous gitu, "xkan r nk muntah rumus2 kt hg lak,bek aku telan dulu la ni, bila test satgi baru muntah xle blah", nice..so ayat yg aku ckp td pun kluaq dari mulut depa, aku pun layan saja..

secondly, he/she really meant to sit next to you, pergh, aku rs cam pandai gila tetiba, ada org nk tiru aku, sure depa igt aku power fak but the reality is I’m not, semua tu relate ng level of confidence hg ja, klu hg xpower pun tp buat2 konfiden, mmg laa org igt hg power hell, tambah2 la klu tym buat exam tu hg xtoleh kanan kiri langsung, “siyes power mamat nih, xtgk langsung mmbe kt sebelah, sure markah penoh nih, bek aku tiru dia”, apa2 pun, jgn over confident sudey, klu xtau buat cara xtau, jgn jd bodo sombong, malu bertanya sesat jln beb

thirdly, yg paling aku menyampah, what he/she really meant to you is the opposite of what he/she had been saying, the real meaning is actually “dude, tym test satg, klu ko nk full mark, meh ah duk sebelah aku, aku ni kan terer, semua benda hujung jari jek wa ckp lu” org melayu cakap bahasa kiasan, aku ckp bahasa kasar xberadap, aku tau la hg power xyah la ckp camtu kt aku yg kurang pandai ini, bukan bodoh yah tp kurang pandai..one question, how do you know what he/she really meant was? from the gesture and eye contact I should say, yeah it is complicated but you just feel it, don’t know how, sixth sense perhaps..

Sama2 lah kita muhasabah diri, ckp jgn sebarang ckp beb, klu membebel kt diri sendiri jek xpe, klu involve org lain yg sama2 hirup udara segar ini, pk baik2 dulu, terlajak perahu bule undur, terlajak kata badan binasa, I’m done here..

P/s: thanks kamu for the kata2 semangat, nnt aku belanja cekodok

obstacle number two

2008-10-26T21:44:00.000-07:00

Last night, a friend of mine borrowed my lappy laptops, “dude, my laptop rosak lah, bule pinjam jap, esok pg2 sebelum ko bgn tido aku kasi blk?” spontaneously I agreed, why is it hard for me to just say no?? anyway I’m not desperately needed to use her for the time being though but I guess I was wrong..and definitely yes, I was wrong

Woke up this morning just to see that my lappy was not there yet, damn, at instance all kind of this and that works come into my mind, “mau bikin kelija pagi2 pun tala senang”, just take a nap la dude, nope2, I had enough of it already, then I drove to the sports complex, filled up the time with calories burning activity called “jogging 2 sambil cuci mata”, later went back, and still…no lappy, dammit, I took a bath, went for a breakfast and had some “kutuk sana kutuk sini” chitchat session, later went back and thank god, finally…ho yeah!! there she is

Turn on the pc, with intention to make some unfinished works, surfing the net while listening to those cachy2 songs make me wanna shake my booty, grap a couple of fluffy pillows, one to put under the head, another hugging in my arm, and then laid my back to rest..damn, why utp’s beds are made to be so heavenly comfortable eh?